The thoughts that give me the creeps.

Hello there! It’s Britney, bitch. Just kidding. The bitch is back! Well. Not really. Who knows. So, this morning I got back from a weekend in Portland. Can I just say how much I love it there? Everyone’s so chill and hippy-like. Did I mention indie as well? My favorite! There’s something about being in a city that I am simply in love with. The people. The noise. The buildings. Everything. Anyway, my friend’s sister goes to Reed College over in P-Town. I love it there. We went to the pool hall and it was just incredible. It was probably the epitome of what college life is supposed to be. Everyone was laughing and having a good time. There were drugs, art, and music. What could be better? Well, minus the drugs part. People were just whipping their shit out like nothing. I was in shock. Anyway, I had a great time overall. It’s just that the trip made me feel so unappreciative of UPS. Everybody here is just so uptight about shit. Security writes people up over the littlest things. Come on, people. Aren’t we all adults here? Aren’t we supposed to do whatever the fuck we want? Boo. And, especially the party scene. It’s such a journey to find good parties around here. And when we do, we’re the luckiest people alive. I guess I just wish the same kind of atmosphere was here at Puget Sound. Super hippy. I’m not saying that I want to do a bunch of drugs and go crazy. But, it’s just nice to have that option. Wait. That sounded horrible. I guess my expectations simply weren’t met here. But only party wise. Academic wise, it’s great. I have a work load that challenges me every day, but on the other hand I’m not dying in work. It’s a nice balance. Anyway. Not sure if this place is for me. Still getting adjusted but at the same time, I’m getting tired of it already. It’s a weird feeling. Again, we’ll see how it turns out!

So, I am sad to say that my blogging career has come to an end. I know it was just the beginning, but this time in my life has passed and I must move on to bigger and better things. Just kidding. Who knows, maybe I will surprise you with a post someday. We shall see.

Well. Tonight ended in maybe not the worst way, but pretty damn close. I won’t go into detail, but let’s just say that people are fucked up these days. I had such high expectations for tonight. I was with some of my best guy friends heading to an amazing view. The night was just starting. What could be better? Who knew it was gonna turn into an awful night. I just don’t understand the intentions of those crazy people. You expect this to happen, but you never expect this to happen to yourself. What is wrong with the world? What good could have possibly come from what they did? People like that deserve the worst. Just makes me question humanity. What a depressing thought. But, on a lighter note. We are all okay. Well, we eventually will be at least. All we can do now is stay hopeful, and try to prevent an awful thing like this to happen again. I’ve probably never have felt this appreciative. So thankful that it didn’t turn out worse than it already was. I’d like to think that we all handled the situation in the best way possible. That there was nothing else we could have done to make it better. But the thought of that just makes me feel so helpless. This entry is really jumbled up and probably confusing, but all these thoughts are just bouncing around in my head. The rest of the day must go better. It has to.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRANDON!

Hey there. Whoever you are. I guess this is my attempt to document the life I live. If I even have one, that is. But nevertheless, you will be informed whether you like it or not! I’m having trouble deciding what I should start this whole thing off with. But I guess the easiest way is to start with my day!

So, just got back from watching two movies in one day. Paper Heart and Julie & Julia. I know, I know. Excessive, but hey. It’s summer and it’s acceptable. Probably my favorite of the two is Paper Heart. Can I just say how dreamy Michael Cera is? I’m normally not the type to idolize celebrities, but who knew? I guess he’s just up there. Anyway, I’m sure you all know what the movie is about. Girl travels America trying to get a sense of what love is. It really made me question what I think about love. And, I’m still not even sure what I think it is. But, let’s not get into that now. What I really admired about the film was Charlene’s free spirit. She had some sort of sparkle that she alone could pull off. Now trust me, there are times when I express myself too and DGAF. But, she communicated her thoughts not with the intention of tip toeing around another’s feelings, but simply the intention of communicating her opinions. Now I don’t do this often just for the sake of mannerism, but it’s really something that I want to work on. I guess this blog is somewhat helping me achieve this goal, right? On another note, the ending scene really moved me. She talked about taking risks and diving into the unknown. What a statement, huh? I’m starting to realize that this was the reason a certain relationship with a certain someone didn’t turn out too pretty. I guess I’m just not emotionally prepared to let my guard down. To let my walls fall when I’ve kept them solid and sturdy for so long. Will I be prepared to open my heart fully? Who knows. Maybe I just haven’t met that person that I will be willing to do that for. Or, maybe I’ll just stay the cold-hearted but not-so-fearless bitch forever. We shall see how that unfolds.

Hooray for movies that make you think!